Two Lenses

I was busy in a rush, and they've been busy rushing.

Everyone's asking me non inquisitive questions like if I'm crushing.

Man, I need a minute.

My inner voice needs a peace of mind.

I keep telling my chemical imbalances that I'll be fine.

I really can't help it I really can't I wish I can tell everyone how much I love being in love, but will they accept me as I am intertwined.

I wish I could travel back in time as I have dreamt of spring.

I usually use LSD to get rid of my temporary feelings that are damaging.

Maybe I'm overthinking

But you make my heart desire pure.

The love I feel for you is galore.

When I feel your arms, it makes me feel numb and when I blink it can turn something into something Nah Nah this is nothing.

My masculinity will be destroyed but you make my heart desire more.

Every time our souls connect I feel your emotional capacity even more.

My family thinks I live in the underworld.

As they don't know what's going on in my world

I can't tell you the last time I connected with a woman.

But let me tell you my first love was a man.

He had gentle skin with an honest touch.

We connected deeply but I'm too ashamed to say too much.

He gave me everything I needed including the love I never had.

I still hear the ghosts of laughter, my childhood past.

I believe in God but what if he doesn't believe in me.

I told the pastor l'm spiritual so if I say I see both sides of Chanel he will definitely be waiting to belittle me.

So help me god I am not sinning I'm telling you I hope you see me for who I am, I am yelling for you.

Doesn't everybody sin? I ask myself as religions tell me I'll burn in hell.

Why it comes to people who are different they always think about sex but it's like heterosexual relationships, it can be a blessing and a mess.

I'm not a category or apart of a group.

Sometimes I wish I could fly, I would totally push myself to fall off of my roof.

I am proud but don't pry.

We're all sinners and someday we all have to die.

Sex before marriage

Tattooing our skin

Most children are born out of wedlock.

Smoking cigarettes and weed.

See we all sin.

What makes it different for me if I still pray everyday?

I haven't killed nobody,

Or judged.

So why can't l be forgiven.

I like men with smooth body's.

And women with curves too

Trust me I love everybody.

As I see through two lenses.